i think im trying too hard.
trying too hard to be your friend.
it's hard to even cry now.

don't u know it's hard to go back to what we were.
normal friends we are now ; tell me how close can we get.
don't expect the things to happen last time to happen now.
i still wish im the one u confide in, but sometimes, certain things are better left unsaid.
i am still me but i admit i did change, for the better or for the worse, i think it's obvious to us both.
im feeling so disgusted w myself because it only occurs to you.
im acting so stupidly and irritating when it comes to you.
apparently it's just this thing that's stopping me ..
i don't know what ; i don't know how.

maybe, we need more time.
maybe, u going into army is the key.


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maybe, just maybe, it shouldn't even have happened in the first place.