to me ; it's such an irony.
how we said we'll be fine when we decide on something.
but we didn't expect the unexpected to happen.
being totally caught up in that, it's unavoidable to feel like a f0ol and be sad.
this is how stupid life is ; u cant get the best out of both.
when u lose, u learn in a cruel way.
when u have it, u gain something different, but somehow u lose something u had.

upon knowing what happened to jasmine ; i felt that.
i feel damn sad and wasted for her.
alth0ugh i dont know the both of them well .. i knew it wasn't easy to be together for that long
nd i know the times spent can never be forgotten that easily.
those happy memories are sure to bring back tears which are so not needed.
maybe that's what they are to be right now ..
i believe ; if they're destined to be ; they will be.
ALL THE BEST!

elson told me it's such a different thing to feel for a guy when they go army.
mayb my interpretation of it is wrong but ; u just dont make me feel wanted.
we're really drifting apart for real this time.
although i expected this to happen since i've decided t give up, but i really am sad.
how once we were so close that u would even call me when u'r feeling sad and cry.
u dont know how important i feel i am to u that moment.
maybe that's just memories.
happy memories are sad when reminising ; maybe it's just like that.
i really cherish and loved the times with u ..
but i dont know why things turned out this way.

im sad my friends d0nt think well of u.
despite the encouragement they gave ..
deep down ; if we were to be like this, i noe they knew it'd be better for me.
it's saddening to know this but nothing helps.
i trusted u time and again but i just got sick of things.
i didn't know how u felt but mayb u felt just like me.

i believe it wasn't our fault but maybe we just knew each other at the wrong time.
or maybe me/you are the wrong person.
HURS ; how consoling is that uhs.
things just dont go my way everytime i want it to and i dont know why.
i've been trying so hard to make things work but mayb it's just not meant to be.
this is such a FREAKING stupid thing which makes me headache.
maybe, just maybe, what it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time i tried so hard.

i saw fongs/nich/cheryl tdae.
i d0nt know why i feel distant when i see fongs.
mayb we really drifted too ; we hadn't been talkg.
readg back my SMS a few weeks ago nd seeing those SMS she sent made me think back.
anw im really v glad t have her as a friend ; a v nice one indeed.
we all change .. but i hope we'll still be the same.
i really cherish all of my friends ; but i noe ; things dont go my way as always.


my life's changing too .. all i want is just a peaceful life ;/